pretty shitty

have been feeling low,very low. just realized i have gained some weight lately,look miserable in eveything,dont even feel like having sex as my bfriend would see my fat body.so i have to start doing something..an emotional eater its who i am,but the fact is,when i feel fat i also feel bad and i have to comfort myself with food.so now when i feel down,i will think about how beautiful i will look after some weeks when i have lost at least 3 kilos,should help,hopefully
have to work late tomorrow,as roomaids have the most amount of work during the weekend,so at least i wont eat so much,nothing when i come at home.my goal now is to eat more or less proper breakfast,salad and maybe a piece of bread at work and then fruits or veggies after work and everything only until six pm. should work just fine
today we are moving,and this new flat is so small its scaring me,we might get in serious trouble there,regarding our relationship,which has been struggling a lot lately..
i can do it,right i want to feel confident,beautiful and sexy,damn it!!!